First, there are all those messages you only reply to when you feel like it.
There are also all the photos she sends you, which you take a quick look at before putting your phone down.
There’s also all the posts you leave on his social media, just because you’re bored and have nothing else to do.
But it’s also all the canceled dates, whenever a better opportunity arises.
It’s the little attention you give her that she clings to with all her might.
Yet she gives you everything.
Despite the little you offer her, she puts herself entirely at your service.
But there are also all the surprises she gives you that you’re so used to that you don’t even notice them anymore. Still, these are things she took hours to organize.
And then, there is your total lack of consideration… Which is reflected in particular by your inability to surprise her in turn. An inability to love him, quite simply.
There are all the services she does for you, without you having to ask her twice. Yet she would never dare to ask the same of you in return.
These are all those evenings that she would like to see last until morning, but which always end very quickly because you have better things to do.
You tell yourself that you can read her like an open book.
She is transparent. You know very well that when you need her, she is there. You also know that if you want it, you can have it.
And where is the challenge in all of this? Where is the conquest? Where’s the thrill?
She cares about you and that doesn’t amuse you. It’s not entertaining
She’s honest and that’s not entertaining either.
What she feels for you is love… But what’s the point, at a time when all that matters are superficial relationships?
You are losing her and you may not even realize it.
With every question you don’t ask, you lose it a little more.
With each date you cancel, you lose her a little more.
Each time you prefer someone else to her, you lose her a little more. Yet only God knows that you are his one and only choice.
Each time you fail to appreciate her tender and selfless gestures, you lose her a little more.
Every time you take it for granted, you lose it a little more.
Every time she falls asleep wondering why she’s not up to it, you lose her a little more.
She is blinded by her feelings for you.
His feelings, strong and intense, prevent him from seeing the truth and opening his eyes to you. She is more than up to it . It is you who are not up to it and who do not deserve it.
Because if that were the case, you would have long since known how to appreciate it at its fair value.
But don’t get me wrong, this situation will not last forever and you will end up losing it. Because there will come a time when she will have nothing more to give you.
And when that moment comes, she will leave you.
Yes, she will suffer. Because she sincerely loves you and because she believed in you a lot. Parting with someone you trusted is always painful.
But there comes a time when you no longer have a choice…
And one day, it will be his turn to no longer answer.
Her turn to look at the photos you sent her, before putting her phone down with a sigh.
One day, it will be your messages that will go unheeded.
And believe me, the moment she starts to treat you the way you’ve always treated her, reality will hit you square in the face.
You ask her out and she politely declines.
You’ll flood her feed because, for the first time, you’ll genuinely care about her activities and what she does with her days.
Your likes will no longer be just the translation of your boredom.
And there you will understand that you are no longer the reason for his smiles.
You will miss the nights spent by his side and you will regret never having made the effort to stay until morning.
You will regret not having been able to speak to him. The silence will be suffocating and you will dream of just one more small talk.
You will cling to all the things she gave you, material or not, and they will become painful memories.
They will remind you that this girl loved you, maybe a little too much, but with a lot of sincerity .
And maybe thinking back on it, remembering that she wasn’t mysterious and that you could read her like an open book, you’ll also remember that she was honest.
And in doing so, you will finally realize what a precious gift his honesty was.
She wasn’t playing. She wasn’t pretending, unlike the others.
No, she was just loving you. And maybe at this very moment, you will think that she ruined your life… But not as you could ruin hers, no.
In a good way, like someone who has the power to show us the true nature of things, to teach us that love is indeed the most beautiful thing in this world.
You’ll get over it and you’ll meet someone new.
Truth be told, you’ll probably go from girl to girl, telling yourself that something is missing in each of them.
